Saturday, March 2, 2013

Passion Renewal

Get your minds out of the gutter people!  I am not talking about that kind of passion.  Gosh.  What gutters you all live in!  Just kidding.  My mind usually has a permanent residence there.  Ah, the product of having so many men around me growing up.  My lack of lady-like ness is tremendous.

OK,  let's start again, shall we?  Passion.  We all have something that makes us feel alive inside.  It's something we are passionate about.  Something we love to do.  For me?  My passions are music and writing.  What I wouldn't give to have somewhere far away from neighbors to see how much musical ability I still have!  So, my saxophone and clarinet will stay securely tucked away in their cases for the time being.  Someday, I will dust them off and really give it all I have again. Music makes my soul come alive.  Playing music, learning music, figuring it out by ear ... ah ...  there is no greater feeling.

Writing.  I love to write.  I love to create characters, conjure up plot lines and twists and turns.  My ultimate dream would be to work professionally as a fiction writer.  That is like ... wow.  I can't even put into words how happy that would make me.  Of course, I would want to be a professional writer to the point of being able to do JUST that.  I'd have my house with my writing nook and just ... write.  But, that's a dream world.  Thankfully, I have a kickass job I can do and write on the side.

The problem is, I haven't been writing.  It's just sort of fallen by the wayside.  I would write at work, in a notepad on our CAD terminal and then I'd have to either print it all out and retype it at home or just delete it.  Not very productive for finishing a novel that can be submitted.  Then, I would tell myself I would write when I was off.  Time whizzed away from me when I was at home and I never got to it.

Well, guess what?  I'm pretty much gonna be down for the count for two months.  Not working.  Not working out.  I'll be resting.  Lots of down time right??  This means I am going to give it all I have to get a good head start on the novel I have bouncing around in my head.  I don't know if I'll start at the beginning and write that way or if I'll write the scene that pops in my head and then piece them together from there.  I don't know what my process will be.  But, it's going to be!

I am going to write again.  It sounds exciting to say it.  I hope it will bring me the same sort of passion it brought me before.  I remember hours of my shift would go by with me hammering away on the  keyboard.  I didn't hear anything around me.  It really helped me avoid some of the things I never wanted to listen to.  I wrote SO much.   With two months of time at my disposal, will I be able to write that much again?

Will it be any good?  Who knows?  Does it matter?  No.  I'm not gonna sit down at the computer and write the world's best selling novel after over a year of not trying.  But, it will stimulate something, hopefully and eventually I will finish something that I can send in.

Yes, I say I am going to submit something to a publisher.  I definitely will when I have a finished product that I am confident with.  I'm not gonna send in a piece of crap.

So, here is me, putting it in writing ... I am going to write again.

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