One of my favorite things about being a grown up, is that I can make decisions for myself. I don't have to get permission (although having the husband on board with said decisions helps) and I can decide to do things whenever the hell I feel like it. At least there is some perk to this endless battle of responsibilities, right?
So ... I haven't exactly done anything for myself recently. I don't count having my hair done. Because I can just not do that. Honestly, the hair doesn't help make this package look any better. Anyway, everyone kept saying I needed to get away, go on a trip, do something nice for myself. Alas, that never really happened. So, I was thinking, and reading, and researching and I decided what I wanted to do. So ... I did.
I decided I wanted to do something about my gas mileage. I bought my 4-runner when children were still a possibility. Right now, I have to think that they arent', because I can't plan for them. I don't know what the future holds for my health. I need to start living in the moment. So, I decided to shop for a car that got better gas mileage. I don't need an SUV. It's usually just me and Loki in the vehicle anyway.
I decided WHAT kind of car I wanted, and what year range. I decided I wanted to go shopping this weekend. I headed to the dealership to see if they had any 2010-2012 Acura TSXs.
What did I get?
A 2014 Acura TSX. Yes, I fell in LOVE with the brand new ones but I didn't even entertain the idea because I knew I couldn't afford a brand new one.
However, I could afford to lease one. Why would I lease a car? Well, if you know me at all, you know that I start getting antsy for something different car-wise every couple of years. It's a HORRIBLE habit, but what made it worse is that I would want to BUY a new car every few years. So ... I did.
Since turning 20 I've had:
2000 Honda Civic SI (brand new)
1998 Ford Expedition
2003 Ford F250 (new)
2004 BMW 325i (brand new)
2005 Acura TL
2007 Toyota 4-Runner
So, I haven't bought a brand new car in almost 10 years. I've been getting used ones, and because I keep rolling them over, my payments have always been pretty crappy.
Now, I have a brand spanking new car. I got behind the wheel of it last night and it had only 71 miles on it. It smells like a wonderful new car and I am over the moon.
On the night of the purchase, I couldn't bring it home because it wasn't there. I had to come home in a loaner while they tried to get it from another dealership. I was very ... uneasy. I felt like I chose wrong. I felt like I shouldn't have done it. But, that's the adult in me trying to talk myself out of it.
Once I had the keys in my hand, once I got behind the wheel and drove my pretty car out on the roadway ... all those regrets faded away.
This is for me. This is what I did for myself. I deal with sooooo much crap, people talking about how great they are, people screaming at me on the phone. Being sick, cancer, trying to live my life with a life altering illness ... I deserved to do something for myself.
And I did.