The first day of a new year. January 1st, 2014. New beginnings, a chance to say "this year I'm going to ...". People make resolutions to change or do something different this year. Lose weight, run a half marathon, change jobs, whatever. For me? I am just hoping that I have a better year this year.
OK, last year wasn't ALL bad. I mean, I did get to buy a house and I leased a new car. I managed to get through the year, made all my payments, etc. All the while feeling like death was trying to grab ahold of me every day.
I want this year to be different. I want this year to be better. I don't want to be at the hospital all the time. I don't want to have this scan and that scan. I don't want to be reminded all the time that I am sick. I want this year to be about other things. I want this year to be about GOOD things first and foremost.
I have a few resolutions but ... some will take a minute to get going.
I want to make dinners and lunches at home every day.
I want to save money by getting groceries and using them.
I will stick to the non-inflammatory diet.
I will continue to drink a gallon of water a day.
I will continue to not drink soda pop/cola/whatever you want to call it.
I'll stop obsessing about my weight and focus more on my health.
I will stay on top of my laundry and chores
I will work less.
I will get outside more.
I will read more.
I will be happier.
Of course, today is not the only day to make resolutions. You can make them anytime. Those are just a few of the things that I want to incorporate into my life starting this year. I need my stove to be hooked up before I can really get on board with number 1.
I hope this year is better than last year. I hope to start to FEEL better this year. Even if I never feel 100% ... I'll take 50% at this point. It's exhausting trying to keep up appearances when I feel like this and it is exhausting to feel like this.
So, here's to 2014. May it be better than 2013 in a lot of ways. I mean, after all, I'm gonna be in my mid-30s in 13 days. Something has to be better than that right? Of course, that means I am still here, still getting older. Above ground is better than below ... I have to remember that.
OK, 34. You can come. I'll allow it.