Thursday, May 29, 2014

Period. End. Done

I did it. 

It's been a few years, some hiccups along the way, cancer, meeting a bastard named Wegener's, and battling my own criticism but ... I finished. 

Finished what, you ask?

If you hadn't read the last entry, you won't know.  I wrote a book.  It's a fiction story.  It's kind of a combination of a couple different projects I was starting but now ... it's done.  I'm finished.   I finished it.  I typed a period on the last line of the last page. 

I sat there, staring at the computer, not quite sure what to do.  It's been forever since I reached this point in anything I was working on.  Maybe, I never really have. I mean, I remember thinking I was finished but ... it was never like this.  I feel like there is an entire world opening up to me right now.

What happens next?  Sheesh, I don't know.  I've sent out 40 query letters now, some with a synopsis, others with sample chapters.  I sent all my info out into the world.  What happens with that?  I don't know.  I'm nowhere near done sending out queries.  Nope.  There are thousands of literary agents out there.  THOUSANDS.  And, trust me, I've read some books where I thought, "I could do better than this."

Someone out there will take me.  They will.  I will publish this beast.  It may be revised a bunch of times by an editor and may have some big changes in it.  I may go through it myself and add a scene or two.  Maybe it could use some fattening up.  Who knows?  Right now?  It's done!!!!!

I even went back and made a cover page with the working title that I have for it.  I typed the title, and underneath I typed By Nicole G****.  I stopped and looked at that page, a noticeable chill dancing down my spine.  This is what I have always wanted. I can feel it in my bones.  I love books.  I want to be an author of books.  They don't have to be Pulitzer prize winning books, they don't have to be on the best seller list ... they just have to exist!

If I did become published, the only other dream I would want to achieve is ... having one of my books adapted into a screenplay and turned into a movie.  That would be pretty freaking awesome. 

So, that's it.  I am done.  I've finished a novel.  It's not too terribly long.  273pages.  This could get longer, you never know.  Eek! I don't even know what to think right now.  My brain is all abuzz!!!!

I just wanted to share.  I don't even have a clever way of ending this. 

So ... I'll just go.